Predictions

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I have predictions for my life. I have been invariably thinking about being a key figure somewhere. And I did it, but I was wrong. Despite reaching my goal and being a key figure, I realized a new reality in there, in this condition. It wasn’t my dream. It was a personal illusion that was created by me. While I was thinking about reaching a critical position, I missed out on some facts.

               The most important fact that I missed is the rules of the game. In each dimension of human relations, they have a different style. It was my first mistake. I encountered diverse human relations. I was thinking people act stable and predictable in each dimension of the relations. So, I have acted like a silly and tried to make the same decisions invariably. I didn’t get the diversity in communication styles and multidimensionality.

               Finally, I realized an important fact about human relations, and it was that people can communicate with everybody at different levels. I mean, nobody has to be completely positive or negative to someone because of how their friends behave. For instance, I saw a lot of people who maintain communication in spite of experiencing bad things. I learned it is called multidimensionality, and people do it intuitively. People maintain communication despite bad things happening, and they think it is normal. These people don’t act like all humans are completely white or completely black.

               After spending three years in the university, I realized life and people are like an ocean. We live in a sea world, and there are some places that are called sea, river,

and waterfall. There are some places that are dirty and other places that are clean. Additionally, there are some places that are in between being dirty and clean. Seas and oceans include sea salt; however, rivers and waterfalls don’t include sea salt, and they are consumable by the animals and people.

               The life resembles the human interactions due to having different water forms. People have different lives, abilities, skills, and tendencies, like water sources. While water sources divide into sweet water and salty water, people divide into good people and bad people. While water sources have diverse styles like rivers or oceans, people divide into different characteristic structures. It is called diversity. I just realized it.

               When I realized this fact about the people. I gave up acting like I have to achieve everything and have to be first in all disciplines. In spite of my passion, I just didn’t do it. I have learned that passion isn’t the key topic to becoming the best. I have realized people consist of different parts. They consist of different characters, SES, hobbies, tendencies, and choices. I have understood there is no one who is the best. We are just eligible for temporal roles. Each person is like a player to be the best in a discipline for a temporary time.

               I am too; I am a temporal player in there, and I am only doing my responsibility. I just did my responsibility, and it was perceived like I’m the best by someone. It is not anything else. While shining like a star, I was happy to be in there; however, it passed. A new era has begun for me. It is called preparing for my postgraduate studies.

               I am focused on preparing for my master's, and I made decisions. These are improving my English to C1; thus, I am going to be someone who communicates effortlessly and explains complex topics in the cognitive sciences. It seems it is my only goal for now. All other things are shaped by this goal. I won’t permit anything else to be a factor in my life.